Haiiii everyone!!! I know, I know. I’ve been gone for a while… My last drawing was on July 16, and the last actual post was even earlier. So where have I been? It’s a long story, and I can’t fit it all in tiny text.

I’ve been dealing with some pretty heavy mental health stuff. Even before, I was forcing myself to keep going - because I knew I had to keep improving my art, had to show I’m still alive, still here. And sure, I enjoyed doing it, but most of the time it took a lot of effort just to start. And now I’ve fallen into an even deeper state of “can’t do anything.” It only broke for a short period, like from late August to mid-October I actually had energy, motivation, and the desire to do things instead of just rotting in bed like usual. But that period ended too, and it pushed me into an even deeper hole of procrastination and not wanting to do anything at all.

In August I went to a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Besides getting re-diagnosed with ADHD, they also told me I have… anxiety-depressive disorder. I don’t want to go into too much detail about what I’m going through. I don’t want to drag you into that negativity, especially the kind I have to deal with every day. I just want everyone to be happy, for there to be peace and good vibes everywhere. So only my close friends know what kind of nightmare I’ve been living through just by existing.

I know that I got scouted! And I’m so happy about that! Whoever did it, thank you! You really made this little girl happpy!

So why am I making this post at all? Well, after two months, JaidenAnimations finally dropped a new video! And it gave me a burst of energy to keep learning, and also the push to make this post. Huge thanks to her for bringing little corpses like me back to life with her content! UwU