Haiiii everyone!!! I know, I know. I’ve been gone for a while… My last drawing was on July 16, and the last actual post was even earlier. So where have I been? It’s a long story, and I can’t fit it all in tiny text.

I’ve been dealing with some pretty heavy mental health stuff. Even before, I was forcing myself to keep going - because I knew I had to keep improving my art, had to show I’m still alive, still here. And sure, I enjoyed doing it, but most of the time it took a lot of effort just to start. And now I’ve fallen into an even deeper state of “can’t do anything.” It only broke for a short period, like from late August to mid-October I actually had energy, motivation, and the desire to do things instead of just rotting in bed like usual. But that period ended too, and it pushed me into an even deeper hole of procrastination and not wanting to do anything at all.

In August I went to a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Besides getting re-diagnosed with ADHD, they also told me I have… anxiety-depressive disorder. I don’t want to go into too much detail about what I’m going through. I don’t want to drag you into that negativity, especially the kind I have to deal with every day. I just want everyone to be happy, for there to be peace and good vibes everywhere. So only my close friends know what kind of nightmare I’ve been living through just by existing.

I know that I got scouted! And I’m so happy about that! Whoever did it, thank you! You really made this little girl happpy!

So why am I making this post at all? Well, after two months, JaidenAnimations finally dropped a new video! And it gave me a burst of energy to keep learning, and also the push to make this post. Huge thanks to her for bringing little corpses like me back to life with her content! UwU

I’m finally done with exams!!!

I officially passed the whole semester — and didn’t even have to retake anything!!!

I got a 3 in Math, an auto pass in Computer Science, and 3s in both Russian/Lit and Physics.

Knowing our professors, I honestly could’ve gotten a 2... so I’m, really happy

And you know what that means? I’m finally going back to drawing!

Like I mentioned on Twitter, I’ve got an idea for a little comic about "insomnia", and I’ll be starting on it soon.

But first — a bit of rest. Gonna chillax, play some Minecraft and some Fortnite and just breathe for a while!

It is good to be back!

I just watched Jaiden’s new video… PEAK CINEMA. LITERALLY!!!!!!!!!!

Old-school storytimes… about HER FANS. OMG I’M SO JEALOUS OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE

So happy Jaiden has such a sweet and wholesome audience.

And tears in my eyes again. WHY DO I END UP CRYING EVERY SINGLE TIME I WATCH JAIDEN

Haiii everyone!

I’ve already passed two out of four exams!! This Monday I’ve got my Russian/Literature exam, and on Thursday — Physics! I got a C in Math, and tbh, I’m really happy with that! And for Computer Science, I got an auto pass — no exam at all! :P

Maybe later I’ll show you some of my student projects in Blender

I’m still learning programming, but I only have free tools, like ChatGPT, Unity’s built-in Copilot, and some super confusing YouTube tutorials... It’s all a bit overwhelming! But I managed to get basic character controls working, which feels like a big win for a total newbie like me!

Can’t wait to finish all my exams and finally get back to drawing!

As you've noticed, I suddenly stopped posting my drawings. This is due to the fact that exams started at my college. I already passed the first one today... It was,like, VERY hard and I hope that I atleast got a C.

But I didn't just sit and study for exams. I started learning programming to finally start making "insomnia".

Oh yeah, you don't know what it is! I've already posted three of my drawings related to "insomnia". This is my game, the synopsis of which sounds like this:

"The game tells the story of Rhyn, an ordinary student, not exactly a popular person, but that's all while he's awake. And when he falls asleep, he finds himself in a magical world of dreams, where his friends and a whole bunch of adventures are always waiting for him. Well, at least that's how it was, because for unknown reasons, Rhyn began to suffer from insomnia. Will he be able to overcome insomnia and return to the world of dreams? Find out in the game itself!"

I am a complete zero in programming, but I will share my progress with you and hope that very soon you will be able to play the demo of the first chapter!